Forward to 2016 January

It's been some time since ive actually sat down and took the time to sit down to blog. What really gets to me is how fast the time has past since i blogged last. Today it's Sunday December the 20th; Five days away from the most exciting day of my life as a kid. Those days are very long and gone for me now; And i am no longer as young as i used to be as well. One day i hope to write some kind of book about my life and how Poker played a huge part, as to the way it totally changed my lifestyle. Lately here ive been through a lot of trials and tribulations; As life has it those things will all come to past. 2015 although a very tough year for me mentally; Has actually made me a lot stronger than i was a year ago. Like anyone i have a lot of dreams and aspirations; But unlike most the things i want are very simple. One of the biggest things or my dream, was always to prove to myself that my life has been somewhat a success. And sadly at this point in my life i don't feel this way. I wish i could have done things differently earlier in my life. And there are things and situations that i regret even to this day and everyday for the rest of my life.

Ive been fucking around with Poker since 2001; And started taking it a little more seriously in 2007 when i joined Pocketfives.com. Afterwards i was accepted as a member of www.4to1dog.com and my game has slowly transformed to the point where i feel like i can be a real force on the poker tables. Since joining i was able to make $70,000 in cashes online; And about $17,000 in live cashes in Biloxi,MS and Louisiana. The last time i played an MTT on the Merge Network was April 4th 2015; Which was pretty much my bread and butter at the time money wise. Since then the slow payouts and transfer to Bovada has been a very long and hard grind for me. Although ive had my streaks of great deep runs on Bovada. It has been a very long and tiresome grind this past year.

In the real world we have life and death! And i experienced a few losses this year that were very heartbreaking for me. I mean it's life and as we get older the people and love ones we looked up too can't live forever. I also went through a very tough run at work this year; And came very close to losing my job several times. But since then things have settled down, And i realized just how important balance becomes with work and poker. My personal life got a little out of whack also; As my girlfriend of 7 years felt that we should go our ways! And this affected me and my play at the table over the course of a few months this year. Just the entire relocation deal and starting over was not good for me. I have watched a lot of my friends win a lot of money in the last few months. And although yes i am happy for them all; Deep inside it also makes you doubt your own abilities as a poker player. The same guys you go over hands with and share hands and advice. Away from the table we all seem too have a plan; But the ability to move forward and execute on the table seperates the men from the boys. And for the last three months of 2015 i truly feel like i let to many outside distractions destroy my mindset. For 2016 i plan to also give more time to God; Something i feel not only poker players don't do. But just people in general don't do when there going through something. I have several goals for 2016 and i guess ill use this blog to make sure i do what i say i am going to do! I always felt like i was a good person with a heart that's too big to be honest. But i also understand that i have to make a lot of changes in my life as well. I have so much i want to do, and so many people and things i want to enjoy in life. But i guess i failed to realize that with having God and Jesus in my life; Many thing that you actually want has to be approved by him LoL. God knows my heart and my prayers, And ive noticed here lately just how important having Jesus in your life helps your overall bottom line.

So here it is one day before the start of pokerMaximus on the Merge Network. If I had to give myself a rating heading into tomorrow, it would be a B- overall. It's simply not the fact that I am playing; But overall I am my worst critic! In a vacuum my work ethic appears to be stellar so say the least; But in my overall opinion, I can work nuch harder than what I do now.

 Frankly speaking,"yes" I have been playing much better since I returned to poker in Feb. of this year. Poker has taken an amazing twist for me mentally and on the money side of things. And although small compared to the regular online professional mtt'rs. The money that I have been blessed enough to see, affects me on a much larger scale than most successful grinders.

 For instance I wrote an article in the forums about poker and the value of money; In which I feel the theory of disrespect for cash and poker, is a concept that is highly overrated. I live in the real world, with real problems and real bills that must be paid. So if I do truly have this disregard for money; I truly think that along the way, I won't be able to pay my bills for this exact kind of ignorant thinking.

 Sorta reminds me of how people blame their shiity play on variance LoL




Great start to Saturday

Ive been fucking around with poker for about 10+ years now; And not at all because I was any good at it lol. I just loved the game. I mean math and poker go hand in hand, along with the skill and short term luck. So every once in a while all of these things align perfectly; And then we have a new fish/donkey like I was in 2008 winning $11,000 on Pokerstars and being hooked forever!

 As far as cash and the poker world goes; Especially for a new player! Always remember like I remind myself everyday; That you have people working in fast food and other low paying jobs; Busting ass for $375.00 a week. And that's with overtime hours ect, cause I have been there and done that! Nevertheless we as players, are blessed enough to win this kind of money in 3-4 hours.

 So even though winning a $3r/$5r or a dazzler means little to nothing to the high stakes reg. Just take into account; That for most without poker your life would be a living hell. I get so tired of seeing player berate other, simply because they have cashed for thousands or millions of dollars. But I say to you,"remember whre the fuck you come from". God has a way of bringing us all to humble ourselves!

 

 

4to1Dog ships the Merge Highroller for $6,000 vs. 1Troy1

Congrats to www.4to1dog.com and TeamDog's very own 4to1Dog for winning the Merge HighRoller! The win did not come easy, as 4to1Dog had to overcome a 8bb comeback to rally the troops for the win! This is a very short video of the last few hands I was able to record after ending my Saturday night session! LoL at my commentary but hell it was 2:30 am

wess25k

2013 Im Back MTT Grinding

What can i say it's been a while and ive been bak on the tables since Feb. The first month was pretty sub-par so say the least but im cool with it; As the month of March has been better on a small scale. I am starting to understand who i am as a player on the table. I have really been doing my best to fine myself as a poker player. Hopefully by April i will feel prepared enough to move up in stakes to the $10-$20 mtt range. Grinding the micro and smallest of stakes has been very demanding for me.

Stay tuned!

So i totally busted my roll(Time for round 2)

Poker Maximus was a complete FAIL!!! I managed to blow most of my roll on Carbon and ran like total shit. I only have myself to blame as i totally disrepected bankroll mangement just becuase i have a job LOL. At first i began to spew very lightly, and then i began to play $33/$20/$60 ect Mtt's without even attempting to sat into the tournaments i played. I have decided that i will take a step away from the tables for now; As i need to work on my game, as well as disipline that i don't currently have. Once i return i will stick to a 100 buy-in rule playing $11 mtt's and satilite tournaments.

 So for now the focus will be to use my remaining roll on another site to work on weak spots in my game. And in the meantime i will aquire the $1100 needed to load up unto Carbon Poker; And then i will make a run at it once again. Normally i will however play a few mtts here and there;But only t work on trouble spots ect. I plan to return back to full swing in late November to early December.

Journal update for morning session

Roll $2322 After shitting of $160 in 5 minutes

Not a great 6 max session today losing right now. Played my 3rd cash session and fucked off $160 in 5 minutes. Cashed the $11 2500 last night in 23rd for 23 bucks pppppppppppppftttttttttt. Overall a shitty few days and plenty of getting frucked over last night in the mtt's.