"RUN IT TWICE" 2 TIMES IS A CHARM!!!!!!!!!!!

And so i felt like making a post after busting out of the $33 $17,500 tourney on Lock Poker. I guess i am not the type to write an entry everyday; But as time has it i am writing one now. As you all know by now,"If anyone is actually reading this";I placed 12th place in the w.s.o.p circuit event at Harrah's New Orleans. In a lot of ways i am happy with the actual results; But to be honest i am not at all satisfied with my play.

Plenty of my poker buddies on Facebook were pretty happy with my results.Im not sure what it is about me,but i am at all happy about the money or my play as a whole.I am and have always been very hard on myself; And i have yet to prove to myself that i have what it takes to make it at poker.I do however feel that my game has come ages along for the better over the past four years. Currently i am continuing to work on my 6 max game as well as full ring mtt, which is my specialty.

Everyday i look and read through all of the poker forums that i am a member! And every single day i am reminded as to why i am not satisfied with myself or my game.I continue to see other online players like myself move up in the ranks; As i feel i should be improving myself. There is no doubt the learning curve for me has been very difficult,since most of what i know has been self taught. I often sit at my desk wishing that i had other fellow players to talk hands on a daily basis. But right now this is not the case and i have to deal with it!

Next Saturday i will be playing in Biloxi Mississippi at the Beau Rivage Resort and Casino. The last time i played there was four years ago in the same tourney i am going to play. Last time i played in this tourney i was able to final table as chipleader and chop it 5 ways for $8000!

I plan to destroy this tournament when i play in it this weekend; And anything less than 1st place will be a failure to me! I feel like i am at a turning point in my life where i have to find out who i am, and what i will be!!!! Poker is a love of mine that i have had for 9 years now; And the void must be filled to proclaim myself a profitable player. I have invested to much time and money at this point to turn back or to give up! In all my life i have always started projects only to let them fade away because of my laziness or non loyalty to myself to get the job done.